i'm not sure what i am anymore
i’m not sure what i want to work on anymore. and i’m lost. terribly lost. i have many interests. the drive to do something. But you need money to survive (peacefully). to breathe. get your head out of the water. the only thing that remotely interests me right now is design. and of course writing - i have always turned to paper when my life felt pointless. everytime I’ve faced a roadblock i just start typing away. i know i can do many things - there are many things i’d be decent at - writing, coding, design, marketing, etc. but what should i do now? more importantly who's going to pay me to do it?
we worked on product after product. i’m tired now. tired of the cycle. It's hard to stay in the game without a paycheck at the end of the month. getting the word out, applying to accelerators, creating landing pages, putting up waitlists only to face disappointment in the end.
has my journey as a builder come to an end? can i not push my mind anymore? i’m far past the point of burnout. i just need something to do. something that gives me hope.