i saw Alysa Liu ice skating and i'm in awe
i know nothing about ice skating. i have never done it. but when i saw her gold medal winning performance (after the viral stateside video ofcourse) i could not help but think i'm seeing a master at their craft.
in combat sports, of which i'm a big fan of - we call it being in the matrix. a state of flow that looks almost effortless. a zone where you are untouchable. you can't compete with people in this state. they are in a whole another dimension. most importantly they enjoy it.
its the same with work. i work a lot. but most of the time it doesn't really feel like work to me. i do it because i like it. i enjoy it. i'm eternally curious. its like a void i can never seem to full (lol maybe something to discuss for therapy).
i have to be constantly building and working to feel alive. i don't understand vacations. maybe i'm a hustle bro or a workaholic. but the truth is i'm just in my zone. having fun. even if no one paid me i'd keep following my curiosity putting something together. looking for problems to solve.
it's like when Ocean (George Clooney) tells Rusty (Brad Pitt) in Ocean's 12 - "We go into some place, and all I can do is see the angles. It’s what I do. It’s what I’ve always done." That's how i feel, except for the stealing part of course - i can't help but think of problems to solve. my mind's constantly churning - it's a curse. but i'm slowly accepting that's who i am.
we have to do what we got to do. to be a master of their craft. to be someone who practices and fails and practices and fails. all the while having fun. till it becomes second nature. like Alysa Liu or Daniel Ocean.